Friday, May 29, 2009

A Week in Uni

First of all, the reason I didn't blog for the past few days is because I've gone to university. Yup, I'm now no longer a school student, but a university student. Let me brief you guys of what happened during my first week there.

Day 1: Saturday (May 23rd, 2009)
I went to the university with my parents. That day was like a disaster for me. I'm not sad of leaving home and family, but I'm not gonna reveal the reasons here. I took my room key and put all my stuffs in the room first. Finished, I went out to PKNS to buy the stuffs I haven't bought yet. In the evening, registered for the college; Mawar College. Met Syafiqah Salleh, Faez, Fafa and Yot.

Day 2: Sunday (May 24th, 2009)
This day was like a hell for me. Early in the morning when I woke up nearly at 5 am, I got unlucky. Why? Because my padlock got jammed. I used the code-padlock or whatever it is but it got jammed. Perhaps I woke up at the wrong side of the bed. So, I couldn't open my half-my-locker-at-stf-size locker. Darn! Why did this happen to me? I need to get ready before 5.30 am! Fortunately, my roomate opened it for me. She's "strong". LOL. Thanks yea Fatin!

Day 3: Monday (May 25th, 2009)
Usual stuffs for orientation week.

Day 4: Tuesday (May 26th, 2009)
Uff, when would this end? LOL. Oh yea, I got sick today. Wasn't able to get involved in some of the activities till night.

Day 5: Wednesday (May 27th, 2009)
It was a boring day I would say. *sigh*

Day 6: Thursday (May 28th, 2009)
Great! The last day for the orientation week! Got back home that night. Hahah, luckily my uni is only a 30++ minutes-drive from home. Yup, got back to Mawar College (the college I stay in, and I know the name is kinda ............ LOL) on Sunday evening. Heh.

>> Just a sneak peek into my one-week life at the uni ;P

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

News To Add To The Collection

Wow! Today I have a good news, and a bad one. For me XD.

Let me tell you the bad one first.


What a day to start with. Only just now, at around 4.30 am, I discovered something about my friend. Oh my God, this is serious. Scary, freaky, whatever you want to call it.

One of my dearest friends named Sana, aged 18, was found to suffer from cancer. She told me she has had this ailment since she was a kid, and that she had been sick from time to time. But yet to recover. After years of suffering, finally the cancer has gone to its final stage. The disease has become worse and now she's in the hospital. Sitting on bed, conversing with me through what is called the notebook, a result of the ongoing advances in technology.

Frankly speaking, it brought tears to my eyes when I first knew of this news. Because she has been one of my most endearing friends, being a bubbly and exuberant girl. I somehow couldn't absorb the devastating news because she's just of my age. She still has a long journey to go, a new, long journey to embark on. She has yet a lot to discover in life.

Oh yes, this girl is just the same as me. She is also an ardent fan of you-know-who like me ;P Yup, we get along very very well. LOL. Her wishes before she dies, are to be able to perform hajj, and to meet the king of our hearts, Shah Rukh Khan. I told her, you're not going to die, so stop talking rubbish. She replied, "Doctors have predicted that I haven't had much time left."
At that point, my tears fell to the ground.

Initially, she refused to undergo any surgery or operation. Actually, keeping the decision in abeyance. After a tough brainstorming session, and considering all the advices from family members and colleagues, she finally opted for the operation. And now, she told me that the operation is going to be done in Delhi, India next week.

It's kinda weird, because she still has the guts to joke around even with the pain. Yea, she can bear the pain. No big deal, she said. She's actually excited she's going to be operated in Delhi, India because that's the birthplace of you-know-who XD. And she said if the operation succeed, she's going to be reborn there. The hometown of you-know-who. I wish I could be by her side but I couldn't.

Then, I told her, InsyaAllah your surgery will be a success. And surely you will be staying there until you completely heal. Then, the moment you feel your energy is fully back, go and search for you-know-who. Delhi and Mumbai is not that far XD. Oh yea, I asked her to convey my messages for you-know-who too ;P. Never forgo the chance you have in front of you, right?

I just hope she'll be okay and things will turn back to normal. I will pray for you, dear. Always. From afar. I know you're a tough girl. I've given you my advice so I won't post it here.

Some quotes I find suit your condition now, Sana, from our beloved Badshah ;P ~

Walk along with hope in your heart, and you will never walk alone.

Keep faith.

If there is no sadness, then you will never understand the true meaning of happiness.

It's better trying then losing, rather than losing without trying.

KORBO! LORBO! JEETBO! (To do! To fight! To win!) Dear, I hope you'll win this battle against the greatest opponent there is, DEATH. I can feel the first rays of sun beginning to break through. A new day is set to begin. Sana, I know the pain still lingers thick in your mind, but we'll face it head on with a smile and a prayer. (recognise this? ;P)


Okay, time for the good news!

KKR finally won another match!!!!!!! Woohoo! Hooray for KKR!!! I couldn't describe how happy I am right now! How jubilant Shah Rukh is!! How excited KKR fans are!

Yes, KKR! You finally shone! You've finally shown your fangs again! It's time to fight back! You'll show them that KKR will roar even louder for the next season! To redeem ourselves! KKR will win IPL 3!

For those who don't know and haven't been following my blog since the beginning of April, KKR is a cricket team owned by you-know-who and I'm proud to proclaim that cricket is now my newly-found passion!

Monday, May 18, 2009

Survey #5 - Have You Ever, Can You

1. Have you ever sat on your rooftop?
that's crazy. I love to do crazy things, but my rooftop won't allow me.

2. Have you ever kissed someone in the rain?
in my dreams.

3. Have you ever danced in a public place?

4. Have you ever smiled for no reason?
often ;P

5. Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
hahah yes

6. Have you ever peed your pants after age 8?
no way!

7. Have you ever written a song?

8. Have you ever sang to someone for no reason?
i'm not that crazy. lol

9. Have you ever performed on a stage?
oh yea

10. Have you ever talked to someone you don't know?
why would i?

11. Have you ever gone out of your way to befriend someone?
never i guess.

12. Have you ever made out in a theatre?
never had the chance. otherwise, i would make a good actress. ahah

13. Have you ever gone roller skating since standard 1?
of course

14. Have you ever been in love?

15. Have you ever slapped someone?
proudly, yes XD

16. Have you ever been on a cruise?

17. Have you ever been shot?
yea. in my dream. when i woke up, i could feel the pain. weird.

18. Have you ever been out of the country?

19. Have you ever played a prank on someone and scared them?
it was really fun! lol XD. okay. period.


1. Can you write with both hands? nope. wish i could

2. Can you whistle? NOOOOO! but i want to learn how to

3. Can you blow a bubble? what question is this? who can't?

4. Can you roll your tongue in a circle? nahh.. can't.

5. Can you cross your eyes? yes!

6. Can you touch your tongue to your nose? my tongue is not that long. lol

7. Can you dance? marvelously XD that's my hidden talent

8. Can you stay up a whole night without sleep? hey, that's me.

9. Can you speak a different language? surprisingly, i can. other than malay and english is hindi/urdu.

10. Can you cook anything? not a good cook ;P

Survey #4 - The Last

1. The last person you talked to : my maid

2. The last person you hugged : ajim - my youngest brother

3. The last person you kissed : ajim

4. The last song you listened to : Shut Up N Bounce (DOSTANA)

5. The last person you texted : Miss Raha

6. The last person texted you: Pakyem

7. The last meal you had : plain rice with 'sambal sotong' ;P

8. The last movie you watched : Dostana

9. The last person you called : TicketPro

10. The last phone call you received from : syafiqah salleh

11. The last person you had a dream of : my cousin

12. The last holiday destination you went to : Kuching, Sarawak with my cousins ;)

13. The last DVD you bought : RNBDJ

14. The last time you slept well : last night

15. The last entry you posted : Survey #3 - Random Random

16. The last gift you gifted someone : it was few months back, can't remember.

17. The last missed call you received : from Fathiah on 17th May, 7:46 pm

18. The last person commented on you on MySpace : amore

19. The last person commented on your blog : Tkapad

20. The last person commented on your YouTube channel : oreyo513

For the sake of formality, I'm tagging :

..whoever reads this blog

Survey #3 - Random Random

1. What's your favourite wine?
Told ya, I don't drink.

2. What kind of car do you drive?
citroen xsara

3. What was the last song you listened to?
check out tkapad's blog.

4. How much free time do you have each day?
ooo.. you have no idea ;P. but that's about to end this saturday

5. What was the last dream you had?
i really cannot remember. *sigh

6. Are you a student?
about to.

7. What do you do for cash?
anything halal ;P

8. Do you eat fruits and veggies?
i eat some.

9. Do you drive fast and take chances?
only on an empty road XD

10. Do your friends care about you?
you have to ask them ;P

11. Do you ever think your coworkers may be trying to poison you?

12. What is your favourite past time?
my childhood

13. What would you like to learn more about?
possibly anything

14. What is the biggest scam you have come across so far in life?
well, i don't think i've come across any so far.

15. Do you like kids?
bahut!! very much!!

16. Do you sew?

17. Have you ever spray-painted something?
love it!

18. Are you a gamer?

19. Do you have a secret?
yes ;P

20. What is it?
only I know that I have perhaps the largest mole on my right shoulder.

Survey #2 - A Little About Me

1. Name
Again, check my IC ;P

2. Age
Will turn 18 on 21st August 2009 XD Can't wait!

3. Sex
Try and figure out yourself okay? ;P

4. Current location
My room

5. Hair colour
Black is beauty

6. Eye colour
Look into my eyes ;P

7. Do you smoke?

8. Do you take drugs?
Heck no!

9. Do you drink?
It's a NO

10. Pepsi or Coke?
Coke. Pepsi has fired you-know-who as their ambassador. Chill, now he's all Coke's!

11. Favourite colours?

12. Do you like thunderstorms?
Afraid of it

13. Number of tattoos?

14. Number of piercings?
Another 0

15. What would you like to get pierced?
I'll think of it first XD

16. Have you ever cheated on your boyfriend?
Only if I'm forced to ;P

17. Have you ever been cheated on?
Heck yea!

18. Have you ever kissed a boy?
yes! my sweet youngest bro ;P

19. Who was the last person that kissed you?
refer to no. 18

20. Are you in a relationship?
yes. with you-know-who. LOL

21. Have you ever broken any bones?

22. What's your favourite alcoholic drink?
N-O-N-E. sinful

23. Pets
sadly, don't have any.

24. Number of siblings
char - 4. eheh

25. What websites do you go to daily?
i'll try to list them all.
2nd: www.

too many to be listed ;P

26. Do you believe in love at first sight?
yup. I'm the typical type.

27. Do you shower daily?
Heck yea!

28. Right or left-handed?
Left-handed. Love being one ;P

29. Number of past regrets
don't have any idea

30. What's the time now?
5.25 pm

Again, everyone is invited. ;P

Survey #1 - Time To Be Honest

Guys, I'm bored. So, I'm thinking of taking this survey.

1. What is your biggest achievement in your life (excluding school achievement)?
owning an autobiography of you-know-who XD love it!

2. Have you got any regrets in life?
everyone does.. that includes me

3. Would you prefer a holiday in a hotel, camping or bed & breakfast?
1st: a holiday in a hotel
2nd: camping
3rd: bed & breakfast

4. Have you ever said "I love you"?
to my parents, yes. to my siblings, yes. to my friends, yes. to Shah Rukh, yes. to a lad, nope.

5. If you could have one super power, what would it be?
hmm.. whatever I wish for would come true XD

6. What trait in someone do you hate?

7. If you could have one wish fulfilled, what would it be?
pursuing my undergraduate studies in the UK (amin), then the rest that I wish for will
follow from there.. ;P (hope this dream of mine will come true some day)

8. Name one person who has been a great influence in your life and why. (excluding your
you-know-who: Shah Rukh Khan. try to know him, and you'll know why.

9. When was the last time you cried and why?
I think two days ago.. personal reason.

10. Whose birthday is just around the corner?
Farz and Tqasha. (look, i remember guys XD)

Everyone is invited to take this survey ;P

Just Some Gibberish Talk

Firstly, a bunch of thank you to Mady for her inspiring, motivating words. Deep down inside me, those comforting words somehow live up my spirits. And yeah, your words did bring tears to my eyes.

Just got back from visiting my sis yesterday at MRSM Lenggong, Perak. Ahah Jia, haven't had the opportunity to drop by UTP ;P Didn't sleep the previous nights. Yup, I'm the nocturnal kind. XD. We started our journey at 7 am and got back home at sharp 8 pm. What a tiring day yesterday was.. whew!

Today, there is the Teacher's Day celebration at STF. Hahah. Wished Teacher Bibah, Miss Raha, Pn Bahayah, Teacher Liza, and Pakyem only, just now. Well, I only have their numbers ;P

ATTENTION: Pakyem is now in KL. So, who knows you might bump into him any second. LOL

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Happy Teacher's Day!

Special notes to my special teachers ;D

En Abdul Rahim Bujang aka Pakyem (always the first, HAHAHAHA)

Sir, hajah sir neh nk ckp time kaseh byk2 start form 3 sir ajar die smpi la die form 5 [excluding form 4]. Kalau sir xde, hidop saye x sempurna. XD . Sir la penyeri klas ADD saye. Time form 4 ADD saye mmg trok (diff teacher) tp bile naek form 5 poof! Tros naek. Pastu tolong belikan 7 bungkus Nasi Goreng Pattaya lps prep mlm yg sir kata saye dh demam mkn byk tuh. (ape kate kamu dak2 dorm B2-8?? XD) Time kaseh sesgt sir! Saya sayang cikgu!

(Tp saye tringat lg byk kali cikgu marah saye x tentu psl ;p heh. Xpela. Sir pon pandai pujuk gak XD)

Pn Bahayah Mutalib aka Pn Bahayah (must come after her husband ;p)

Cikgu, saye pon nk ckp time kaseh bebyk drpd form 1 lg cikgu ajar saye plus form 4 tros ke form 5. Kalau saye ter'mengantuk' cikgu 'kejut'kan. Walaupon otak saye lambat sket bab2 membace neh, Sejarah tetap dihatiku. Hehehe. Smpi la SPM. Pastu utk Gamelan. Cikgu bg pinkam radio utk kitorg. Klakar la plak terigt ulang alik dgn Dila & Aisyah g umah cikgu amek brg pinjam brg maen ngan anak2 cikgu. Hehehe. Time kasih lagi skali cikgu. Saya pon sayang cikgu jugak!

Miss Raha Rashid aka Miss Raha

Teacher, I must say you have been one of the greatest teachers I've ever had. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for all your kindness towards me. It's still fresh in my mind when you first entered my class when I was in Form 1 5 years back and you asked about Harry Potter. LOL. Thank you for guiding me in life, thank you for treating me with food, quite often ;p, thank you for willing to spend some of your precious time to read and mark my essays when I was in Form 3, thank you for giving me and my friends a ride on our way to Larkin on the MATF day for no taxi was around, thank you for absolutely everything, teacher! And thank you once again for willing to mark every essays of mine which in each essay I kept inserting Shah Rukh Khan's name! LOL XD! I love you, teacher!

En Aminuddin Hehsan aka Ustaz Amin aka ABI

Ustaz, lame x dgr cite ustaz. Last time MATF aritu yg sepatutnya kitorg g jumpe ustaz kt JJ (ye ke??) tp x jdk. Dila la ni ustaz. Time kaseh bebyk sgt kt ustaz sbb jadikkan klas Agama saya esp time form 5 klas yg x pernah saye mengantuk. Klas plg best la. Pastu dgr saye merapu byk kt klas HEHEHEH. Ustaz la ustaz plg best pernah saye belajar dengan. Ustaz cool, lepak sgt. LOL. Mmg sume org sdih ustaz dh tgglkan kitorg tp jauh di mate dekat di hati. ;p. Lagi skali congrats kt ustaz utk baby boy, Adib Nasrullah. Semuge menjadila die seperti abinye. Saya sayang ustaz!

Cik Noorliza Sajadi aka Teacher Liza

Teacher! Rindunye kt teacher! Time kaseh byk2 kt teacher jugak sbb buatkan saye rase Chem ni sbenarnye x ssh (tp ntah knape saye x dpt at least A2 tok SPM yg saye rase sy boleh dpt sbenanye). Tp sorry ye utk SPM arituh. Heheheh. Teacher comel sgt,cool, baik, sume la. Syg gile kt teacher. Saya sayang teacher jugak!

Pn Norazian aka teacher Azian

Time kaseh jugak teacher sbb ajar saye Biologi. Tp pon saye nk ckp sorry Biologi neh x taula nape saye x dpt at least A2 yg mane sbenanya saye mmg dh agak. Hehe. Teacher jgn frust eh. Bab2 membace neh otak saye kureng sikit. Penat dh saye cube phm kn tetiap mlm bace buku Bio tu, tp mcm tu jugak. Improve sikit shj. Tp teacher mmg seorg teacher yg ckp byk dgn info on Biology sbb tu saye rase bertuah sgt dpt belajar dgn teacher. Thank you teacher utk semuanya juge. Saya pon sayang teacher!

En Mat Kamil Deraman aka Pak Kamil

Alamak, ni payah sikit neh. Cikgu, sorry sgt2 sbb saye tau saye neh slalu buat cikgu marah n geram esp psl kepo. Hehe. Sorry ye cikgu. Tp cikgu mmg best la. Cikgu men'cair'kan sume org tok dgr ckp cikgu except saye (no negative thinking okay). Hehe. Bile saye mrh dgn cikgu, cikgu pujuk. Bagus2 ;p. Yes, Physics in indeed fun! Hehe. Time kaseh jugak cikgu sbb saye dpt A SPM yg mane saye sbenanya terkejut jugak. Selamat Pengantin Baru cikgu! Semuge berbahgia ke anak cucu cicit dan sterosnye. Saya pun sayang cikgu!

Pn Rapeah Jeilani aka Pn Rapeah

Cikgu, mule2 saye nk ckp time kaseh sbb ajar saye since form 2 smpila form 5 (excluding form 3 & 4). Kadang2 saye ngantok tu halal kan la cikgu eh. Dh lepas pon. Tp saye x kan lupekan tuk semuanye cikgu. Time kaseh jugak sbb doakan utk kitorg mase cikgu pergi Mekah aritu. Saya pon sayang cikgu!

Pn Habibah Mazlan aka Teacher Bib

Teacher, thank you so much teacher for everything. Eventhough you didn't teach me English nor EST at all, but I'm grateful enough to know you because you're one of the coolest teacher I've ever known. Hehe. Thank you for treating me the other day. Thank you for telling me the story of your husband's sudden meeting with Amitabh Bachchan in India. Heheh. Thank you for willing to listen to my problems and everything about Shah Rukh.XD! I love you, teacher!


All in all, I love all my teachers and I want to say sorry for those not mentioned here. I'm not saying that I'm not being grateful nor thankful to my teachers, there are too many to be listed here but the most important thing is I love all my teachers and I thank them for who I am today. My kindergarten teachers, my primary school teachers, my form 1, form2, form 3, form 4, and form 5 teachers.

I will never forget these wonderful people who have made my life meaningful and full of rang (colourful). (It's a good thing I have their phone numbers. Never lose contact okay, teachers?)

Yes, one of the many X factors I feel my life in STF is unforgettable and enjoyable especially in the year 2008 is the teachers. XD.

>>> Hmm, thought of posting some pics of me and my teachers here but will postpone, I guess ;p

Friday, May 15, 2009

When The Clock Strikes 3

Many many felicitation to you guys! For securing the MARA scholarship!

Especially to these gals (those I know at the moment) - MIN, DILA, AINZU, TKAPAD

Wow, how does it feel being a MARA scholar? Even for barely around 2 hours as of now? You guys are just SO DAMN LUCKY to get the scholarship. No doubt you did work hard for this. You guys deserve it.

All four of them get to read Medic. Congrats, gals!

Not forgotten for VALOURians who are now JPA scholars, congrats too!

MADY, ON, AMORE, BEDAH, FARHAH, EMA, CHOY, and others. (JIA made up her mind to stick with PETRONAS)

Sorry if I missed out any names here. These people are the only that I know.

And my special special friend; AZ! A Bank Negara scholar who is currently in KYUEM. Miss you, AZ! (Kem salam Aisyah ;D)


A piece of advice to those who didn't manage or perhaps I would say failed to get MARA scholarship, look at the bright side. Like me. Okay peeps, the truth is, I am one of those rejected for PILN. Not only by JPA, but also by PETRONAS.

Two rejections in one single night. You think how was I feeling at that point of time? I didn't put too much hope for JPA, because I screwed up myself during the interview, hahah. Well, I think so. But I did hope for PETRONAS, because that was the first time I put up my very best performance I would say for all the interviews I'd attended so far.


Sorry, have to delete this part.

Thursday, May 14, 2009


Guys, guys, guys!

I beg you. Please don't make my life more miserable. You're making my condition graver than ever by restricting those who can read your blogs! AHHHHHHHH!


Love notes to these people;

Farz - sehingga kini kumasih belum mendapat apa-apa 'jemputan' drpd kamu

Thyra aka Phadden - ku juga masih belum mendapat apa-apa 'jemputan'

Tkapad - Simple. Don't follow these two nutties up here. Haha. Gile la diriku begini. dh bg
id, till now no invite.


Whoever wants to make their blogs private, immediately send an invitation to me.

Here. (ehem.. ehem.. not for publicity purpose ;D)
[Point to note: It's, not or or alright]

I know, you're welcome ;p

Tagged by Tkapad

1. Your name : Check my IC. Heh.

2. A four-letter word best describes you : N-U-T-S

3. A boy's name : Muhammad Shahrul Khan ;p

4. A girl's name : Sara Zaara Khan (another ;p)

5. Ambition : A successful engineer

6. A color : between RED, BLACK, and GOLD. hard to pick.

7. Something you'll wear : when and where?? please specify. LOL.

8. Something found in the bathroom : mirror mirror on the wall

9. Food : countless

10. A reason for being late : none.


12. A movie title : My Name Is Khan

13. Something you drink : Uww, delicious carrot juice!

14. A musical group : nahh. no interest in any.

15. An animal : perhaps a cat, or a cute hamster ;)

16. A street name : Amrit Road

17. A type of car : BMW 7 series [that's his car ;p]

18. Title of a song : Tujh Mein Rab Dikhta Hai (I see God in you)

19. WHO do you want to tag?

Think. Think. Think. Yes!








I'll leave you guys with a pic of my lil' cousins I grabbed from my cousin's blog.

Sorry, K Long. Hehe ;p

Point to note: The baby is not their sister.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Too Gorgeous To Handle

My sis has gone to MRSM last Monday. Kinda sad actually. I guess this was how my family members felt when I left this house for STF five years back. LOL. Me and my sister - we usually don't talk much with each other basically because she's an introvert kinda person. So, her absence here doesn't make such a great impact on me. Hehe. It's a good thing right?

Well, wanna share all the wallpapers I made for you-know-who here. ;)

There are not so many of them, just a few, and I know these wallies are not so good an artwork, but I'm satisfied with what I've done. Well, to look at my level of doing this kind of stuff. Heh. Still in the learning process.

My creations (siggies, wallies) since I joined My Dil Resides Here. ;)

Quite simple, but I love it!

If you notice, this is the pic I put up on MySpace ;)

Too Hot To Handle [Drooling over his pics ;p]

A bit messy, I know ;p

Love this one ;)

For KKR in IPL Season 2

Love the Khans! Aryan looks more like Gauri and Suhana looks more like uski papa ;)

My most favourite as of now ;)

Another recent work yesterday, slightly different ;)

There you go ;) They might be simple to you but I put so much love in my work when I did them. Told ya, still learning ;D Got distracted by Shah Rukh, of course ;p

Oh yea, my friend did this for me ;) Love it!! From RNBDJ!!

Thanks Pawan!
I tell ya Shah Rukh, can't wait for this July, can't wait for you to start shooting for 'Happy New Year', because I want to see you live! I absolutely can't stand it anymore. This wild eagerness to meet you in person is driving me nuts and definitely is killing me!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Get what I mean?

I'm thinking of posting every piece of my artwork here. What do ya think?

Saturday, May 09, 2009

3Ws - What Went Wrong?

Posted on 9th May 2009.

Read the title? Yup. What went wrong? I keep asking myself what went wrong since yesterday.

What went wrong?

Was it my results? If it was, then I would've never been called to attend the interviews. Esp the PETRONAS interview.

Was it my interview performance? I don't think so. Because to me, I'd given my very best shot in each. Well, less in JPA ;p

Or was it my bad luck? Yea, I guess that must be it.

You guys must have had the idea by now of what I'm babbling here. Just jump straight to the conclusions and you're right. I didn't manage to secure any scholarships. Neither JPA nor PETRONAS. What a bad luck. Needless to say, my heart is mixed with feelings of humiliation, anger, sadness, depression, etc etc.

I hate to say this, but now I've been starting to think that God has somehow been unfair to me. I'm really sorry to think like this. Ya Allah, I seek for your forgiveness.


Posted on 15th May 2009.

Okay, after somewhat a few disastrous days for me lately, I'm back to normal. I've calmed down.

Like I said in my previous post, I've done a lot of thinking about my future. About all the events that took place in my life recently. And I just have one thing to say; everything happens for a reason.

I'm so sorry to think that God has been unfair to me. There are people out there who are less fortunate than me and I know I have to be grateful and thankful no matter what for what I have now, for what I've achieved at this stage of life. And I truly am.

Well, I guess I just have to relax and enjoy my life at the moment. 23rd of May will be the day I'll be leaving for UiTM Shah Alam to read Chemical Engineering. Initially, I thought it was kinda okay to get Chem Engin (quite shocked actually because I got B3 in SPM for Chemistry ;p), but then my parents told me that this field doesn't provide a large prospect and there is little demand in the market. I'm thinking of changing to Civil Engineering. It would be better for me.


The one thing I mentioned earlier is about luck. Yes, I am very eager to study overseas. Well, everybody does. But my dreams shattered to pieces when I failed to secure any scholarships. 8th May 2009 was indeed one of the saddest day in my life. The day I was expecting to make me jumped wild turned out to be one of the most devastating days of my life. Now I realise that luck somehow plays an important part in your life. Like Sushmita Sen once quoted, everyone has performed their very best, but we need that luck to win.

I know some of you would be like, "Why are you taking it so seriously? It's not the end of your life."

My answer, "Personal reasons. Only I know." So, shut your mouth because you know nothing about me. No offense anyways ;p

Nevertheless, I've overcome this feeling. From now on, I would think only the good things. I know God has written my life story and has my fate in His hands. I know He will show me the right path to take. He decides my fate and fortune. So, I shall just leave it to Him.

Suddenly, I remember a quote from my heartthrob cum idol cum inspiration, none other than SRK ;p, which I feel suits my situation right now.

The strength lies in sticking to a path you chose to begin with. As the journey progresses, whether that path turns out to be tough or easy, you have to follow it because therein lies your beliefs and principles.

I truly definitely absolutely agree with you, dear.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

The King is On His Way!

A great great super great news for me!! King Khan may come to Malaysia this July to watch a Bollywood musical, 'The Merchant of Bollywood'!

The transcript of an article I found.

May 5th, 2009 - 12:08 pm ICT by IANS

Kuala Lumpur, May 5 (IANS) Leading Indian choreographer Vaibhavi Merchant’s semi-autobiographical musical “The Merchants of Bollywood” is set to be staged here in July and she hopes to get superstar Shah Rukh Khan to attend the gala.

“This is not just another project, it is not fictional. This is a part of me, a story that says dreams do come true,” she said at a press conference during the media launch of the musical in KL Tower yesterday.

“I am very excited to see it being staged here in Malaysia. Perhaps I can try pulling Shah Rukh from his busy schedule to come and see the show in Kuala Lumpur,” said Vaibhavi, who is here to promote the musical, The Star newspaper said Tuesday.

Highly popular in Malaysia, Khan was made a Datuk, a traditional Malaysian knighthood, earlier this year.

Vaibhavi is one of the most sought after choreographers in Bollywood, working with the likes of Amitabh Bachchan, Hrithik Roshan and Shah Rukh.

The 90-minute musical will feature 48 songs including smash hits from Bollywood movies. The cast of 53 will go through 1,200 costume changes and wear 2,500 pieces of Indian jewellery.

The musical showcases the artistry of classical Indian dance moves fused with modern dance genres, funk, disco and hip-hop.

Vaibhavi said despite discouragement from her family that wanted her to stay away from dancing and cinema, she was carrying on the legacy of her grandfather, the late Hiralal, a top choreographer of the 1960s.

She said “Merchants of Bollywood” was close to her heart as 95 percent of the storyline reflected her life story.

“This is not just another project, it is not fictional. This is a part of me, a story that says dreams do come true,” she said.

Kuala Lumpur would be the first Asian stop for the musical that has enthralled audiences in Britain, Spain, Italy and Germany in the last five years.

Don't be surprised okay. One of my daily routines is hunting for the latest news on my heartthrob.. ;)

Seriously, I was trembling when I first knew about this news. I'm very very glad Shah Rukh has Malaysians in his heart too. ;) I'm extremely thrilled!

Nevertheless, I don't have any idea of whether he will come or not. Since he will be busy resuming My Name Is Khan shooting this end of May, as soon as IPL ends. But I do hope he can take some time off his busy schedule and come to Malaysia. Besides, he needs a break. A break from his work [he's a workaholic], a break for his hope-to-heal-in-a-speedy-recovery shoulder, a break from all those people who keep bashing and cursing him [no need to explain the reason]. Hopefully, he will bring his family too. ;) Needless to say, Yaseen Khan, his personal bodyguard will be here too since he tails Shah Rukh everywhere he goes. LOL.

To those who know the level of craziness I have in me over the Badshah of Bollywood, convey your good and best wishes to me in meeting him. Okay?? But yes, I admit it is very heartbreaking, disheartening and painful everytime I know that Shah Rukh is just near me, I mean he's in Malaysia, but I couldn't meet him.

Additional info:~

Merchants of Bollywood will be held in Istana Budaya from July 14 to 26. Tickets are priced from RM70 to RM500 and are available through or via the Ticketpro hotline 03-78807999. Limited student tickets are also available at RM45.

For more information, log on to www. or call 03-79559995.


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Bought these DVDs when I was in JB. ;P

[Those in red star my sweet Shah Rukh ;)]


Thought of posting some pics here ;)

My roommate and bedmate at Seri Malaysia
Hehe ~ DILA

Another pose of us ;)

At JJ Tebrau

Green DILA + Pink ME

;p Sorry, too many pics of us



My long-time-no-see friends!

Not many pics were snapped. Sorry yaar ;)
Hope to see you gals again in the future! Never lose contact okay!