#10confessions was one of the trending topics on Twitter several days ago. So here are a few of mine.

1. There was a phase in my life where i hated, despised, and detested my brother. For REAL. But now we're good. :)

2. I do hold grudges. 'Cos i forgive, but i never forget.

3. Walked alone once in a dark alley at 6 in the morning.

4. Never liked my name when i was small. Well, that was then. :)

5. I prefer nights than mornings.

6. I'm so addicted to reading that i even read dictionaries.

7. Truthfully, i've never watched Ghost Rider till tonight (June 10, 2011). Hahah.

8. Dreamt of being an actor once. But thanks to my height, that dream is crushed. Hah.

9. Used to have a strange belief that if i saw splashes of droplet in the morn, my day would go bad.

10. I have a crush for Shah Rukh Khan. Any doubt?


Last Monday I underwent a dental surgery to remove my left wisdom tooth. Within two days, my cheek had swollen to the size of a fist. More or less so. Haha. Felt like I had goiter for awhile. But in my case it's in the cheek and smaller. :P And I hate the pills called Papase they gave me to prevent the swell from getting bigger. Tasteless but I had to keep sucking. -.- Oh, went to the orthodontist just now 'cos my parents thought I was supposed to wear those braces today. Turned out the orthodontist meant next Saturday. :P

Anyways, congrats on your engagement Faden!! :D Never thought you'd be the first! ;D

*Can't stop dancing to Jebal by Kim Hyun Joong ;D*


Signing off,

I Scream for Ice Cream!

I'm back! Heehee. So how am I these days? Terrible. -.- I'll tell you why. Almost a couple of weeks ago, my parents persuaded me to wear...braces. -.- After a few times of persuasion, I gave my nod. Truthfully, the second my mom voiced the idea to me, I got teary. Why? Even I don't know the reason. I did cry. Well I still cry about it. Haha I know this sounds so foolish to you. I guess one of the reasons is because over the years, every time I stared into the mirror and smiled, I would put my index finger on top of my lips, covering the one 'special' misplaced tooth that ruins every picture of me. And to think that perhaps I'll no longer be doing that anymore makes me emotional. =') Lemme tell you I always lack confidence when I confront people. No one knows this because I always act casual in front of other people. And to think that I'd always been teased and laughed at and made fun of just because of 'it' really breaks my heart. Another reason I was quite reluctant at first is because I'm afraid if people will still tease me after they see my teeth is no more the same like before. Yes, I am that pessimistic.

So last week was my first meeting with the dentist. Thank God the clinic is just nearby else it would've made things difficult for my parents. Wait. I don't know why I even bother writing about this. You must've already read or heard about this similar experience from anyone. I'll just continue though. Okay so just like any other normal human being, you can say that I'm kinda afraid of those called dentists. Haha. But luckily mine is very nice. And it's a she. :)) So during that first meeting, she examined my teeth, jaw, face structure and took an X-ray of my teeth. She then made a mold of it where she put this kinda gooey green dough pressed against my teeth and took it out after several minutes. This process is called impression to get the model of your teeth and gum so that the dentist can determine which tooth and how many must be plucked to put on the braces.

Then my next appointment was last Friday. This time I received the professional teeth cleaning treatment which included tooth scaling and tooth polishing. Oh I definitely hated this moment! Then the dentist took pictures of my teeth and jaw structure from each angle. -.- Next, came the process where I was put on 8 elastic separators which are also called spacers. Man, it huuuuuuuuurts! T.T Today is only the third day and I have to endure the pain for another 5 days. Well I didn't really feel anything on the first day but yesterday, Saturday, which was the 2nd day was worse. I could feel some my teeth moving. Till the day before yesterday I still could feed myself hard food but not anymore. Now I can only eat soft food. T.T Porridge, mashed potatoes, yogurt, ice-cream, to name a few. But now I'm used to the pain. Though it sometimes gets difficult when I brush my teeth. And yes, at this moment I feel like all my teeth are gonna come out. -.-" Oh my separators are blue in colour. Like in this pic. ;D



You will feel as if there's a piece of food caught between your teeth. Quite uncomfy, yeah. -.-" And now I'm using this toothbrush! Cute ain't it? :D It even has LEGS! Hahaha. ;P Well, it's actually my youngest bro's but he has never used it before.



Well, that's all for now. This Friday I'm gonna undergo a dental surgery to get rid of one wisdom tooth of mine. And probably will apply the braces only next week. Yesterday I watched some videos on YT as to how the surgery is done. What the hell I'm freaking out!!! x'O A doctor even used a hammer??! Okay, let's just be cool... -.-" Signing off. Going to a distant relative's wedding tomorrow.


Signing off,

Missed Me?

Hey ho. Been a month since my last visit here. Pardon me. Oh yeah, I'm good, in case you're wondering. :P It's been 2 weeks now into holidays. And I have another 3 1/2 months to enjoy. Thoroughly? Naahhh. The jitters are still there, until my results come out. Congrats Darina, you finally managed to unpack ALL your stuffs yesterday. *pats shoulder* Fyi, I still haven't gotten my car yet. That explains why I can't go out much despite the huge demand from friends. *coughs* Oh, my sister is going to further her tertiary education in Perak and she's leaving this Monday. So that just leaves me and my youngest bro, Ajim. I'm gonna miss her. =)) Hmm my blogging mood has just come back so let's go easy and slow. ;D Till later!

Signing off,

Survey #31 - Charmed

And here's another survey. :P Yes. I have nothing better to do at the mo. Haha.

1. The phone rings; who do you want it to be? -- you-know-who's personal assistant. haha i can't call him often as that'll cost me quite some money :P

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? -- hmmm i don't do grocery shopping. :P

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener? -- both :))

4. Do you take compliments well? -- who wouldn't? :D

5. Do you play Sudoku? -- never in my life. i never understood how the game is played. pity me -.-

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive? -- of beasts and wild animals, i might. of ghosts, no. -.-"

7. Do you like to ride horses? -- heck i LOVE it!! that's my fave thing!! :D

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid? -- yes! i love going to camps! :D

9. What was your favorite game as a kid? -- malay traditional games ; lubang tikus, congkak, tingting, batu seremban ;D

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it? -- a sexy guy? muahahaha! ;P

11. Have you lied to get out of a date? -- nope :)

12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you? -- yep. as long as we're only dating and his beliefs aren't that contrary to mine. and if we were to get married, he'll need to convert to Islam. :))

13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued? -- all girls like to be pursued i believe, including me :))

14. Use three words to describe yourself? -- adventurous, fickle-minded, pessimistic -.-

15. Do any songs make you cry? -- oh of cos. but i can't remember now which one. :P

16. Are you continuing your education? -- yes i am! ;D

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun? -- i wish i knew how =/ told ya i'm the adventurous type :D

18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed? -- i don't keep my personal docs with me so it'd be my purse.

19. How often do you read books? -- everyday whenever i have the time :)) i just love reading! :D call me a nerd so what? ;D

20. Do you think more about the past, present or future? -- i've no idea. -.-

21. What is your favorite children's book? -- all books from my enid blyton's collection! :D

22. What color are your eyes? -- brown?

23. How tall are you? -- let me not disclose that :P

24. Where is your dream house located? -- never thought of that before. maybe i should start thinking about it now, shouldn't i? :))

25. Do you have a secret fetish? -- i do. but it's not called secret for nothing! ;P

26. Have you tried sushi? -- nope. can you believe that? my dad is very particular about halal food and he doesn't allow his kids to have those. even though they say it's halal.

27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth? -- lemme see. we never really took pics. we were just faking it. :P

28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden? -- where's that place anyway?

29. When was the last time you were at Church? -- i'm a Muslim and i never go to the Church

30. Where was the furthest place you traveled today? -- errrrrrr my kitchen?? :P

31. What was your favorite cartoon series during your childhood? -- sailormoon!! :D i've watched the first 3 seasons and just the beginning of season 4 so i'll finish watching it during these coming holidays! ;D

32. Do you like mustard? -- no -.-

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat? -- EAT!! :D i'm always in!

34. Do you look like your mom or dad? -- dad :)

35. How long does it take you in the shower? -- 15 mins and above

36. Can you do the splits? -- haha sadly no :P

37. What movie do you want to see right now? -- RA.One and Don 2!!! but both will only be released in the second half of the year =(

38. If you could fast forward your life, would you? -- i'd rather not. i'm enjoying my teenage life to the max. ;))

39. What did you do for New Year's? -- nothing? :P

40. Do you think The Grudge was scary? -- sorry never heard of it before :P

41. Could you relate to a character in Mean Girls? -- nope :P

42. Do you own a camera phone? -- everybody does! ;D

43. Do you have an "ex box" with pics and letters from past lovers? -- haha should i tell? :P

44. Was your mom a cheerleader? -- nope. but she was the class president for a few years ;D

45. What's the last letter of your middle name? -- i've no middle name

46. Do you like your middle name? -- what should i like when i have none?

47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night? -- 4-5 hours are enough for me :))

48. Do you like care bears? -- unn-nooo

49. What do you buy at the movies? -- popcorns anyone? :D

50. Do you know how to play poker? -- i only poke people on fb :P

51. Do you wear your seatbelt? -- only when i'm in the front seats

52. What do you wear to sleep? -- i feel like a celeb having to answer questions like this :P very intrusive

53. Anything big ever happen in your hometown? -- my grandma's demise in 2007. may Allah bless her soul. amin

54. How many meals do you eat a day? -- when i'm at home, it'll be whenever i feel bored and hungry. when i'm at the college, standard 3 times per day

55. Is your tongue pierced? -- naahh. i'd get killed if i ever did that :P

56. Ever meet anyone you met on myspace? -- only my friends haha

57. Do you read myspace bulletins? -- never. what's myspace anyway? :P

58. Do you like funny or serious people better? -- funneeehhh! ;D serious people are scary

59. Ever been to England? -- yep. London :))

60. Did you eat a cookie today? -- there're no cookies in my house =/

61. Do you use cuss words in other languages? -- sometimes

62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads? -- they didn't say i have to pay :P

63. Do you hate chocolate? -- i LOVE chocolates!!

64. What do you and your parents fight about the most? -- i never fight with my parents :))

65. Are you a gullible person? -- quite -.-

66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy? -- nope! :D

67. If you could have any job what would it be? -- haha i've always dreamt of being a really famous star like you-know-who when i was small ;D such a nice thing when you thought of the kind of stardom you'd get. not to mention the being rich part :D

68. Are you easy to get along with? -- most of my friends say so! :D so i guess i am!

69. What is your favorite time of day? -- from midnight till dawn!

Signing off,

Survey #30 - KLJ

Sorry guys. Been sabbatical for awhile. :P Today I feel like answering surveys. So here's the first one. ;) More updates comin' up soon! And don't mind the title if you have no idea of what it means. :P


1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?
-- haha nope. it's definitely not the time yet. :P

2. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
-- duhh! everyone must've had! -.-

3. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
-- i seriously don't like to work out. but might just do during the holidays that are about to come ;)

4. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
-- nasi lemak. haha that was my breakfast today ;D can't imagine my life without it

5. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
-- height/voice. whichever.

6. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
-- i can never choose ^^"

7. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
-- near to sk subang bestari. go figure. hahaha

8. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED:
-- sekolah tun fatimah. i miss you!

9. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD:
-- never had one before. even during my holidays after spm. or semester breaks.

10. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:
-- no idea. that just shows how much i've been busy lately :P

11. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY:
-- dila! :D

12. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND:
-- haha we had a skype session coupla weeks ago! ;D

13. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:
-- KFC anyone? ;)

14. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?
-- citroen xsara. but now it's in the workshop and i'll only be able to drive it again after probably a month ='(

15. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
-- can't recall. that's a good thing right? ;D

16. MOST DISLIKED FOODS:
-- anything that has fish in it. yes. i don't like fish -.- well except for certain few dishes.

17. FAVORITE MOVIE?
-- my name is khan till date! ;D

18. CAN YOU SING?
-- well i dunno. ya think??

19. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
-- haha sonu niigaam's :D rocking! *say what u want. u should know by now i'm all for bollywood haha*

20. ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT:
-- my cellphone o'cos ;D

21. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:
-- coffee is my life :)

22. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
-- scrambled! :D

23. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF:
-- i'm so very easily influenced by people. whenever someone hates a person and tells me negative stuff about him/her, i'll automatically hate that person too for no reason. -.-

24. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON:
-- winter and autumn :))

25. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?:
-- 9.30 am ^^"

26. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?
-- super cool! ;D i mean, johnny depp is! :P

27. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?:
-- india, rome, venice :))

28. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?:
-- YES! :D and the first time was 9 years ago in London! :)) wish to go there again ;))

29. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?:
-- uhhuh :)

30. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?:
-- oh yes. he keeps haunting my mind ever since that day. and i'll only be seeing him again after 6 months =(


Signing off,

Shah Rukh Hunt ;)

And now my report on the Shah Rukh Hunt in KL. ;D

Okay, so you know Shah Rukh shot for Don 2 in Malacca, Langkawi and KL. I went to Malacca and gave you the details already, even though it's a short one. ^^" Wanted to go to Langkawi too but I couldn't. Shah Rukh was there for 2 weeks but he wasn't in Malaysia on the first weekend so I didn't go. And the next weekend, he was in Langkawi but I couldn't go as I had study commitments that Sunday. But my friends who I just met and knew in Malacca went there. The fan that spent $3000 who I call as Erum came to Langkawi with her boyfriend. They endured the 10-hour journey just for the sake to see Shah Rukh. On Saturday night (Feb 26), they were having a meal at the coffee house, then suddenly Shah Rukh passed by. There were quite a lot of fans gathering outside the hotel that evening. She saw him and quickly ran to him and shouted his name. Shah Rukh noticed her and she asked for a hug and he gave her one. And it was a tight one!!! Shah Rukh was rushing at that time and no digital photography was allowed so she couldn't take any pic. He was on his way to have dinner with Tun Dr Mahathir and was already late so he left.

And came the day for Shah Rukh to come to Kuala Lumpur. I had been collecting as much info as possible about the hotel he was gonna stay at in KL, his flight details etc. And as usual, I set out on the journey alone. Thank God I don't have classes after 12 on Fridays, so I went to the hotel as soon as I finished class. Reached the hotel at 4 something and Shah Rukh was due to land at KLIA at 4.40pm. Met another Malacca friend there, Sabeena. We chatted while waiting and we were the only fans there at that time. I guess because it was a working day plus no one figured out about the hotel yet. Then at 5 something, PC arrived. Wow she's beautiful in real!!!!! Very nice body figure and tall too!! Or am I the short one?? We asked for a pic and her autograph and she then quickly went up to her room. Waited and waited and waited and hotel staffs started to fill the hotel lobby. I knew he was gonna arrive anytime soon!! They lined up and got their cameras ready. We were somehow blocked but tried to squeeze in between them. -.-" Then came Shah Rukh's car!!! OMG, he has arrived!!!! Saw him getting out of the car and walked in!!! The first thing I noticed was that the hair extensions were gone!!! I was so relieved to see that and how handsome he looked in his normal look again!!!! He was in a dark blue shirt and was wearing dark shades. Melting melting and melting!!!! And he was wearing a white hat!!!! I SOOOOOO love to see him in a hat!!! Saw the same local bodyguards in Malacca and they were like stopping people from taking Shah Rukh's pics. He was walking quite fast and suddenly was already at the lift and went up to his room. And I went back.

The next day, Sat Mar 5, I went to the hotel again, not in the afternoon, but in the evening, around 8pm. But Sabeena went in the afternoon, somewhere around 3. We were told that Shah Rukh won't be having any movement till evening, so I stayed at my college to finish my video I made for him. Sabeena kept me updated though. She said there were like 10 or so Malay girl fans waiting for him at the hotel lobby. She was having a cup of coffee at the lounge when she suddenly saw Shah Rukh walking out of the lift and quickly ran to him. This one is pretty much like Erum. She asked for a hug and Shah Rukh hugged her and walked to the car. She was the only who got Shah Rukh's attention out of all the fans present there. And then she went back. And I reached the hotel at 8pm. There I saw a Punjabi family and two other girls waiting. First we saw PC who was walking out of the lift to the car. We tried to take pics but then the film crews didn't allow us as she was in her costume. Whoaaa, this girl is veeeeeery pretty!!! Love when she ties her hair!! ;D Some people went up to her and took her autograph but I just stood there. Haha. No point in approaching her. And she left to the shooting sets. The Punjabi family too went back home when they thought it's already getting late. Then, when it was almost 10.30pm, Shah Rukh came back. This time he was in a dark blue top and jeans. The two girls ran and approached him as soon as he got out of the car, asking for some pics. I followed them but then I was stopped by this one short, bald, local bodyguard and he said to me, "You already got a pic with him, right??" I was like, WHY THE HECK WOULD YOU CARE??! I only managed one pic. -.- Just watched the girls with Shah Rukh and then a little chaos happened. The girls were trying to ask the bodyguards if they could take the pic and were showing how to but then Shah Rukh became angry and shouted at them. I was actually shocked and very surprised to see the scene!!!! Never had I seen Shah Rukh got angry like that and shouted at fans. But then it made sense because the girls should've gotten ready with their cameras earlier but instead he had to wait for them. It was a bit weird because he just got back from meetings with sponsors and shopping, so why would he rush?? The next thing is just go to bed. But yeah, he's Shah Rukh Khan. He can perform 10 things in 10 minutes that's why time is very important. He was shouting, "What are you doing?! Fast! Fast! You're wasting your time!" His face was serious.
That's why I was dumbfounded. They got a pic taken and another girl who happened to pass by saw him and asked a pic too. He then quickly walked inside and was stopped again for pics by some other fans. And these two girls came running again to him asking for another pic because they said the first one didn't come out right. Shah Rukh looked so tensed but obliged and again said in a high voice the same things. I didn't dare approach him because I didn't want to make him angrier. Felt like he shouted at me too!! He then rushed to the lift and hugged Datuk Lorna who was walking behind him and went straight to his room. So that was all for the night. On one hand I feel very lucky that I got to see both sides of him, I mean, the Shah Rukh when he's happy and the Shah Rukh when he feels down.

The next day, Sunday Mar 6, I was told by a film crew that shooting starts at 1.30pm. I have a friend who was an extra in the film as a police and so I went to the shooting sets. Waited and waited till somewhere around 4, PC came and they started the shoot. Whoaaa!!! I seriously couldn't believe my eyes that I was watching Priyanka Chopra shoot!!!! And I was the only fan there on the sets!! Other fans weren't allowed to enter. ^^" I was speechless as PC and Farhan were so close to me!! Then they took a short break and Farhan and PC sat on the chairs provided for them. I was standing really close to them that I could even see the scene shot in the camera!!! I was standing behind PC and could hear her hum, "Disco deewana..." And she laughed when Farhan heard her. Haha. She turned around and noticed me. I said hi to her and she smiled. And then I waited inside the dressing room for extras. Then at almost 8 Shah Rukh came!!! But he was sitting inside his van while Farhan gave instructions to the extras and PC and Om Puri as to how the scene was to be done. Few minutes later Shah Rukh came to the sets all clad in white!!! He looked soooo different but still managed to look as hot as ever!!!!! Especially with the hair extensions and stubble!!! OMG!!! I'm actually watching SHAH RUKH KHAN shoot LIVE in front of me!!!!! I felt like fainting 'cos it felt so surreal!!! =O He was so cool!!! Truly an unforgettable experience!!! But I'm so terribly sorry I couldn't take any pics as I was surrounded by film crews and it was very hard to do so. After the scene was shot, Shah Rukh went outside to smoke and chatted a bit with Om Puri. I went outside to take a closer look at him. Ahhhhh this man is so beautiful!!!! *melts* There were only a few fans outside but no one was allowed near him. Then I saw Subhash walking to the van. I followed him and he saw me. I asked him if he could pass the album of postcards to Shah Rukh because I seriously was giving up on wanting to give it personally to him. I was intending to go back because it was already 10.15pm and it takes quite long to reach college. But then he asked me to wait till the shoot finished and he'd call me to give it myself. He insisted I should wait. So I had no choice but wait. I didn't go back inside the shooting area, instead waited somewhere near the van. So that it'd be easier for Subhash to call me later. Chatted with the vans drivers. They told me a lot of wonderful things during the shoot in Langkawi. I was also surprised to know that they were even there in Berlin, Germany for the shoot. One driver told me that Shah Rukh shot a scene with Lara on a bridge where he was riding the Ducati motorbike with Lara at the back seat. They showed me all the pics they took with him and those they secretly took of him. And there was one killer pic where Shah Rukh was TOPLESS!!!!! Gosh!!!! I can still remember it very vividly and clearly!!! He looked SO DAMN HOT!!!!! With white pants if I'm not mistaken. He just finished a scene and was about to meet Dr Mahathir. And the crew told me that the shoot in Langkawi was done in a small island where they had to take boats to go there everyday. So no fans could go there. And Shah Rukh finally finished shooting at 2am. I was waiting by the van but he didn't come. Instead, I saw his Mercedes went to the area outside the sets. He got into the car and left. I was actually disappointed and a tad bit sad but not that much. So one of the crew dropped me off that morning to my college.

The next day only Sabeena went to the hotel to see him. I didn't go that Monday and Tuesday as my schedule was packed and I was always alone so it'd be a bit difficult for me. That Tuesday afternoon Sabeena went there with the intention to get a pic taken with him. And she got it. And the next day which was Wednesday Mar 9, I went to the hotel again. I have no classes on Wednesdays, so I went there in the morning and reached at 11am. I brought along the album and a letter for Subhash. Asked the hotel staff to pass it to Subhash. As Subhash doesn't speak Hindi much, I asked my dear friend Anshula to write the letter in Hindi for me. I wrote to him to pass the gift to Shah Rukh and will be waiting for his reply at the lobby, if Shah Rukh has seen it. Haha I actually had a hope that Shah Rukh would send Subhash to the lobby and invite me to the suite! HAHAHAHA I know it's very silly and sounds so impossible. But who knows right? Since there was only me. And then Subhash came down to the lobby. I was quite surprised and we chatted a bit. He said Shah Rukh was still sleeping because they got back from Malacca late last night, in the wee hours. Awww poor Shah Rukh. And suddenly images of the cute Shah Rukh sleeping came into mind. Subhash then asked for my phone number and gave me a miscall using the Malaysian number. I was veeeeeery surprised when he said that I can call him anytime if I want to know any info regarding Shah Rukh's whereabouts. OMG, why is this man SO NICE??? Asked him about some German fans who are my friends and he said he knows them too. He told me that that day, Wednesday would be the last day of shoot and on Thursday evening, Shah Rukh would attend the Tag Heuer boutique launch at KLCC. He asked me to come again before 6 if I wanted to see Shah Rukh. So we said goodbyes and I went to have lunch. Came back at 4 something and saw Erum, Sabeena and her boyfriend, and another friend I met in Malacca. I missed them! Caught up with each other while waiting and about 7 something, Shah Rukh came down. This time he was wearing a white top, the one where I took the pics with him. And definitely in a much neater look as he tied his hair. And this time the bodyguards didn't stop us at all!!!! I let others take pics with him first because they hadn't had any with him alone. Then I saw an empty space beside him and quickly stood beside him. He saw me and reached out his hand and I held out mine and put my hand on his waist while he put his hand on my shoulder!! It was quick and when we looked to the cameras, I was like, oh wait, where am I putting my left hand?? Then it came like an electric shot to me as I then realised that I was putting my hand on his waist!!!!!!!!! WHOAAAAAAA!!!! My dream came true!!!! He was wearing a thin fabric of cloth so I could actually feel the skin!!!! Then I asked him if he had received the album and he said yes!!! He said he had read all the postcards and said they're very sweet. And he thanked all those who sent them!! He also kept patting my head like he did last time. And he then walked to the car. I shouted Thank you, Shah Rukh!! and he turned around blowing a flying kiss!! x)) Aaaaahhhhh my heart dropped when he looked into my eyes!!! So that was it for that day.

I didn't plan to come again the next day which was Thursday, Mar 10, because I have classes from morning till 7pm. But I have a friend who just checked in into the hotel that afternoon with her son and sister. She said I can sleep in her room if I want. Heck I'm definitely in!!! Especially when that friend of mine who is a Punjabi met Shah Rukh at 6 something!!! And she said he was sooooooooo handsome because he got his hair extensions taken off already!!! She said there was a red carpet laid out for him at the hotel before the event. She and her sister saw him in the grey T-shirt and jeans walking out of the lift and shouted his name and approached him but he asked them to wait for 5 minutes and went to the car. Said something to the driver and then he came back to them. They thought they missed the chance already but he kept his promise!!! He hugged, kissed, gave blessings to them, posed for pics and gave autographs. Those three were the only fans there. And he went back up to his room. My friend immediately called me so of course the adrenaline rush in me got very high!!!! Hahahahaha I definitely cannot wait till the next day!! So I was very rushing that evening. As soon as I finished class, quickly called a cab and took the train to the hotel because it takes one hour and a half from my college so I was very very afraid if I would miss him that night. And finally arrived at the hotel at 9.30pm. So later me and my friend waited at the hotel lobby. Yep. There was no one there except for us. Then at 10.10pm, I saw a Mercedes parked in front of the hotel and I knew instantly that it was him. Saw him and the tired look on his face. Nevertheless I walked up to him with my friend behind me and the moment he saw us he smiled. I thought of asking straightaway for autograph because I didn't want to bother him much since he looked tired but he pulled me into a hug!!!! Definitely one of the best hugs I've ever had!!!! *faints* And at that instant I could smell the very nice scent of him again!!!! *on cloud nine* Aaaahhhhh felt like fainting!!!!!!

And I quickly asked for autographs for my friends and for me in case he would walk away and he wore his red glasses and took a look at the small card of his pic. x)) He stared at it for a moment, and flipped it backward. And wrote "To, Darina, Lots of Love & Happiness" I was like AAAAHHHHHHH he wrote my name!!!!!! YAYYYYYS!!!! Haha he actually wrote DERINA but I corrected him. And then he signed two more autographs for my friends. And then he asked, "Two?" Awwwww how cute his voice is!!!!!!!!! Hahaha and I said yes. I repeatedly kept apologising to him for disturbing him and then he hugged me again. This time tighter and longer!!!!!! GAAAAHHHHHH!!!!! I'm sure you understand how I feel!!!!! And I looooove his scent!! x)) And then some hotel staff asked for a pic too and I heard him ask, "Where's your camera?" The staff was like clueless and was hoping someone could take a photo of them together and I saw Shah Rukh sighed. And then he went up to his room. That night I couldn't sleep thinking that I was just 12 floors below him in the same hotel. Wanted to check out his floor but he went out for a party at midnight. And finally finished editing the video.

Then came the last day for Shah Rukh in Malaysia, Mar 11, 2011. Immediately went to the hotel after I finished class at noon. Met the same gang there waiting for Shah Rukh. But today there was an addition of a few more fans, 3-4 of them. And the hotel lobby was crowded with local Indian film crew wanting to meet him too. Talked to Yusuf a bit and then he saw my gift. He asked me to give it to the hotel staff to pass it to Subhash so that he could include it in the baggage else it would be left behind. I was a bit sad 'cos I was hoping to give it to Shah Rukh personally but then I did what he said. And I'm soooooooo glad I did!!! Because Shah Rukh went through the basement instead of walking through the lobby!!! I was quite heartbroken because I so very much wanted to see him for the last time before he went back to India but I didn't get the chance. Earlier at 3.30pm I called Subhash asking when Shah Rukh would be coming down and he said in about 20 minutes. But I forgot to ask if he'd walk through the lobby. Then suddenly at 4 something I saw the Mercedes parked in front of the hotel missing and the lobby was no more crowded. I had the feeling that he already left and Shah Rukh's local butler confirmed it. Daaang!!! I should've sensed the hint Yusuf was telling me earlier!! But hmmm, what to do?? It's not my luck. So we parted ways and went back. I had to get back home 'cos my dad asked me to else I would definitely go straight to the airport. Then I received a call from Erum saying that she saw Shah Rukh with PC at the Pavilion!!! The bodyguards recognised her and Yusuf was telling her not to come forward so she just watched them and Shah Rukh noticed her and smiled and waved at her. Hmmm, I guess it's true that Shah Rukh doesn't entertain fans when he's with female co-stars and I understand why. ) He was wearing a black T-shirt and jeans, as usual. And then another friend went to the airport to see him and he got a pic taken with Shah Rukh but a blurry one. Yusuf didn't allow him for a pic with Shah Rukh earlier because they were already late for the flight to Delhi. The plane was about to take off at 6.50pm and they just arrived at 6.30pm and all the other passengers had boarded the plane. That friend of mine told me that the flight was delayed because of Shah Rukh. But Shah Rukh agreed so they took the pic and he went inside. So that was it. My whole experience for the past month hunting for Shah Rukh.

I'm very very glad and grateful for the chance and opportunity and luck to be able to meet Shah Rukh again. Especially to see him shoot live. Thank you God!!! Sorry for the long post and sorry for the delay in posting!!


Signing off,