determined!

wooo...after what seems to be half an hour, i manage to get this very computer..i'm in the CC..hahah, weird huh? i will everytime tell you guys about where i am..nahh. forget it. OMG, i'm very jealous with my cousin, farah dina baharuddin! i just read her blog just now..she has inserted her pics during her holiday in Australia! and i envy her so much! because she got to pursue her studies overseas, vacationing overseas..what else? waaa...how i wish i can be like her..yes, i keep praying every day that one day i will further my studies abroad..hey, my life is kind of miserable lately. because why? because my principal (mdm J, that's what the whole school calls her), keeps bringing changes to the school..very drastic changes! what are the changes i'm talking about? hmmm...later.

do i need to give a title each and every time?

aaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! homesick!! that's what i'm feeling right now. it's 9.50 pm already here, in malaysia..5.50 pm in Makkah...7.20 pm in india...oh gosh, i just feel so tired today. because i had a gamelan performance last night for the closing dinner of hockey HKSBP at the national level..it was held starting from the 12th of june at my school...plus, i've just got back from spastic children's food fair..and just imagine, i have to bring all my things (bags, i mean) from one block to one block as soon as i got back from the food fair. the distance is like, 500m..2 trips..yes. aaaa!!!i'm very dissatisfied with the school's management. you see, our NEW principal wants us to move from our original block to other block. isn't that crazy? i know it is. the original plan is just to insert f4 and f5 students into my block and block E, and f1,2,3 to other 3 blocks left..but the latest news is, every student has to move from their block..i don't wanna move from my beloved block!!!!i called my dad just now and he keeps comforting me..yeah, that is what a dad should do, isn't it? i feel relieved listening to his advices..that is the one thing that i'm not satisfied with our new principal..i mean, i like the way she manages the school organisation but this one, NO WAY!!! hah, forget it. it'll just make me even angrier..hey, i'm not finished with meri kahani about my experience in Makkah..so, just wait for the next entry...ok?daa~

new experience

ho ho ho, i'm back! whew! what a long and tiring journey...i departed from jeddah to doha back to malaysia on the 6th of june. and arrived at KLIA the next day at 9.10 am...bangah and pak teh were there to fetch us..a bit sad b'coz indukjut couldn't make it..the reason was because bangah didn't want the space in the car to be crammed up. hah. he drove pak andak's harrier. how lucky he is. now, let's move to the next and more interesting part. well, i arrived at Madinah on the 26th of may (if i'm not mistaken)...the moment i saw Masjid Nabawi, i quickly praised to God for its beauty and glam..(we arrived at around 12 am but it was 5 o'clock in the morning based on malaysia time zone)..plus when i got to visit Makam Rasulullah, tears kept streaming down my cheek for i could feel the sadness that Prophet Muhammad is gone. but i know he answers the greeting of people that come all around the world to his mosque...then, we were brought by our mutawif (tour guide), Ahmad, to visit the historical places in Madinah al-Munawwarah..of course we didn't forget to buy souvenirs for our relatives and friends..(u should see how many boxes and luggage we had to bring home)..hahah..we stayed in Madinah only for a couple of days and went to Makkah al-Mukarramah on the 30th (if i'm not mistaken once again)..as soon as we reached Makkah, we performed umrah instantly. but after the Maghrib and Isyak prayers.the moment i saw Kaabah (Muslims qiblah), ohhhh...i cried for i felt how small i am compared to the Almighty God. at last, i got to face the qiblah for muslims all around the world. i cherished the time being in the holy land of Makkah, seeking for His forgiveness and blessings. how tired i was when performing the umrah (the sa'ie part), because renovations and contructions are done to enlarge the space for sa'ie..i'm not saying that performing umrah was tough and tiring, but it was because of the constructions plus our long journey about 6 hours in the coaster (there were only 11 of us)..when i did umrah for the second time, i felt great. the same went to us in Makkah, we were brought to the historical places there..but the saddest thing was, i fainted on the 2nd of june, right at the top of Jabal Rahmah..yea. because i didn't take my dinner the night before. i didn't feel well, that's why. and the breakfast didn't attract me at all. so, i went to jabal rahmah with nothing in my stomach. but don't worry, i didn't ruin the programmes for the day. it's just that i couldn't get TO RIDE THE CAMEL!! nvm. i recovered fully the next day. when it was time to go back to malaysia, i really felt so sad..even i am still feeling sad right now of leaving Makkah..u don't have any idea how sad it is..waving at the Kaabah. but i pray that one day i'll get another chance to visit the house of Allah. yea. well, there is lot to spill here but i don't have the time. i need to sleep. because tomorrow i'm going back to jb, the one reality in my life that i don't ever wanna face, since there have been many things going on lately. usually, i go back to jb by bus, but this time by flight. because bus tickets are sold out. hmmm, i've been yearning for all this while to get the chance onboard alone. finally. but, i'm sure, 100 %, completely, definitely, sure, i will be very tired tomorrow. oooooooooooooooo...please God, give me the strength to survive and sustain my life. hah. alright, tata for now.

get ready to go...

wow. in just a few hours, i will go to KLIA. oh, i just love to go to KLIA. whenever it is. i don't know, maybe because i like the picturesque there. maybe because it's a huge airport. maybe because there are so many places to shop there. hahah. though the prices are quite expensive. and also maybe because i like to play with the trolleys, along with my youngest brother. hah. im not being childish, but that's me. my departure time is at 3.30 am. so, goodbye malaysia. goodbye friends. goodbye everyone. do pray for my safety. alright, not much to say here. till then.

guest of Allah

welcome back, SRKDK! hahah. talking to myself. it's not quite a long time since i last posted here, naa? yea, right. oh, i just love blogging. this is just the right place for me to spill out all the pressure mounting inside me. a diary of my life. hah. im going for umrah tomorrow. for those who don't know, umrah is a minor pilgrimage to Mecca. actually, my flight is on 26th, at 3.30 am. Can you imagine how tiring will i be? but no, think positive ok. wow, i can't wait to go there. the excitement inside me is blazing. i will be the guest of Allah, you see. don't worry, i will pray for everyone i know, for their long lasting peaceful and prosperous life. frankly speaking, im a bit scared to go there because of the numerous stories i've heard. but think positive. i always remind myself to think positive. im currently watching 'MOHABBATEIN'..just right beside this very computer. hahah. WAAAAA!! i just can't stand it! i just love shah rukh khan! heh. even i've watched this movie for thousand times already, tears just keep streaming down my cheek. well, what to do? my shahrukh is just the best, and he'll always be. sorry, i keep inserting his name in every post of mine. do u know why i love blogging? because to me, it's one of the ways of improving my eng...i just don't know why i keep thinking like that. shayad (meaning maybe), i like to write everything in english. i admit there's been even a slight improvement. right? and im so sorry if there's any misuse of english here.

my favourite song. dastaan hai yeh. om shanti om.

sunne walo suno aisa bhi hota hai
dil deta hai jo
woh jaan bhi khota hai
pyar aisa jo karta hai
kya mar ke bhi marta hai
aao tum bhi aaj sunlo

dastaan hai yeh ke ek tha naujawan jo dil hi dil mein ek haseena ka tha deewana
woh haseena thi ke jiski khoobsurti
ka duniya bhar mein tha mashhoor afsana
dono ki yeh kahani hai jis ko sabhi
kehte hai OM SHANTI OM...

naujawan ki thi aarzoo
uski thi yahi justjoo
us haseena mein usko mile
ishq ke sare rang-o-hoor (2x)

usne na jana yeh nadani hai
woh reth ko samjha ke pani hai
kyun aisa tha kis liye tha
yeh kahani hai

dastaan hai yeh ke us dilkash haseena ke
nigahon dil mein koi doosra hi tha
bekhabar is baat se us naujawan ke khwaabon ka anjaam toh hoona bura hi tha
toote khwaabon ki is dastaan ko sabhi
kehte hai OM SHANTI OM...

sunne walo suno aisa bhi hota hai
koi jitna hanse utna hi rota hai
deewani hoke haseena khayi kya dhoke haseena
aao tum bhi aaj sunlo

dastaan hai yeh ke us masoom haseena ne jise chhaha woh tha andar se harjaaee
sang dil se dil lagake
bewafaa ke haath aake usne ek din maut hi paayi
ek sitam ka fasaana hai jisko sabhi
kehte hai OM SHANTI OM...

kyun koi qaatil samajhta nahin
yeh jurm woh hai jo chupta nahin
yeh daag woh hai jo mitta nahin
rehte hai khooni ke rath par
khoon us haseena ka jab tha hua
koi wahan tha pahunch toh gaya
lekin use woh bachcha na saka
roya tha pyaar uski maat par

dastaan hai yeh ke jo pehchaanta hai khooni ko woh naujawan hai lautke aaya
keh rahi hai zindagi qaatil samajhle uske sarpe chha chhuka hai maut ka saaya
janmon ki karmon ki hai kahani jise
kehte hai OM SHANTI OM (3X)

::TRANSLATION (ENG)::

Listeners, listen, it happens like this sometimes
One who gives their heart gives their life also
Someone who loves like that
Is dead
Come, you listen as well today
The story was that there was a young guy who was mad for a beauty
That beauty was one whose beauty was a famous story all around the world
The story is of these two and is titled "Om Shanti Om"

The youngster's only wish and desire
Was that he finds the colours of love in that beauty

He didn't know his naivety
To convince him was like trying to stop the river flowing
Why was it like this, for what reason?
Here it is

The story was that the intoxicating beauty had somebody else in her eyes and heart
That youngster's dreams were bound to have a bad ending
The story of these broken dreams is known as "Om Shanti Om"

Listeners, listen it happens this way sometimes
As much as one laughs, one must cry
Being in love that beauty, how she was fooled
Listen to it today

The story is that the man the innocent beauty loved was disloyal
Loving such an unfaithful she was only to suffer death at his hands
This tale of woes is known as "Om Shanti Om"

Why a murderer never understands
This is a crime that cannot be hidden
It is a stain that cannot be erased
It stays on the hands of the killer
It stays on the hands of the killer
Someone reached her
But he was unable to save her
He cried on her body

The story is that the youngster who knows the murderer had returned
Life had destined that he too met the shadow of death
This tale of births, deaths and miracles is known as "Om Shanti Om"
It is called "Om Shanti Om" (3x)

my other favourite song, apart from dard-e-disco from the same movie.

namaste everyone..

heheh..long time no hear, right? i've been kind of busy lately and am not feeling very well..i have a fever u know..yay! finally i've gotten a nephew! elman uqail, isn't his name so sweet and symbolises a perfect person? i dont know what's the meaning of his name but it surely means something good, naa? hahah..my friends and i had just celebrated my dormate's birthday on 23rd of april..nasnie elya 'aqila..she was so happy because her best friend was there that night..but now, she's a bit upset and frustrated because she lost her mp4..what to do? we've no idea if she misplaced her mp4..btw, my mid-term is comin..and it's APRIL ALREADY!!! wow! only bout 4 months left for trial and 6 months for the REAL SPM!! for those who don't know what SPM is, it means Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia..a particular exam in Malaysia, that will decide one's future, to study abroad or locally afterwards..i really wish i can further my studies in engineering in London or U.K. next year..i hope so..keep praying for the best.